Thursday, August 13, 2009

, I set my alarm to wake up 3 hours early to get to the library to finish my homework.
Hit what I thought was the snooze button.
Woke up an hour later.
Get to the station.
Insufficient fare.
Go back home for the right metro.
Race back to the station.
The train is coming.
The idiot conductor says "Its running on the opposite track people!"
Get to the opposite track.
Its running on the right track.
Run to the right track.
Miss the train.
There goes a typical morning.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

New Layout!

Hey guys!
Alright, so I was getting a little bored with my original background.
I mean, I was diggin the whole dark and intimate look,
But, Im kinda feeling this one.
Is it a keeper or a ditcher?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Beach Day!

After hearing that I needed a getaway day,
My Bff Authentik- SupaFlai ditched the work place and came to my rescue.
We went to the BEACH!
We had major fun, just the two of us.

Here are a few of the pics...

Send Prince Charming

Im laying in my bed.
But I haven't exactly figured out how to fall asleep.
I logged off Facebook, and decided to check my blog.
As I was reading it, I realized how doggon scorned I sound.
Like, Im laughing as I write this, but, Its a shame.

My friend Allan and I have this little joke about how ALL West Indian moms are born scorned or like, irate, lol.
But, I wasnt always like this, lol.
I was the happiest person you could meet.
Always laughing, smiling, not a negative word could be found in my mouth.
Although, Im not too different,
It just sucks that I am so upset all the time.
Its like, I ask God all the time, do you really want me to be happy?
I see all this good happening for everyone else around me, but none for myself.
I for once would like to be the girl in the annoyingly adorable relationship.
I mean, I know Im a cool person, and I deserve all this, but, I just really dont understand when and where it could be.

All the old guys and Ex's wanna get back in the picture now, but I'm soo over em.
Send Prince Charming over already, lol.

Its so funny, my and my BFF Authentik SupaFlai went to the beach.
Her boyfriend dropped her off.
We get to the beach, alll these doggon couples.

The worst part was, when the sun started setting,
I felt soo romantic.
I wished soo badly to have someone there with me to cuddle with.
I feel so bad too when my friends ask to double date, but I have absolutely NO qualifying prospects to accompany me.

Now,Im not saying, there arent any guys in the equation,
but, not ONE of them end up in the solution.

Wish me luck ppl.
All I ask is for a long term smile on my face.
Thats it.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Calling it Quits

I think I've finally decided to call it quits.
I've finally reached the point of complete overwhelming frustration with the opposite sex.
Your too nice, caring, and supportive,
You get treated like trash.
Your too quiet, introverted, and to yourself, you get called the B word.
I dont get it.
I mean, of course, those are all vague examples, but
I really hate the fact that sooo many guys tell me I'm a great girl, right up until our friendship dissipates.

Seriously though, I try to be as supportive, reliable, honest, and caring about everyone.
But, when it comes to guys, they always take me for granted.

For example,
This one guy.
He'd literally cry and whine, and complain about his mom, and I'd listen.
When he needed money to pay for gas, without even asking, I'd give it to him.
When he wasn't working and he needed money for food,
I'd give it to him.
When he just started a new job, I bought the guy a metro card to get through his first week.
After being together for however long we were together, he realized I was marriage material and he wasn't ready for a relationship.
But not just a relationship, period.
A relationship with me.
He ended up with his ex-girlfriend not, but 2 weeks after our split.

Now, Mr. Awesome.
Really sweet guy.
I never feel pressured around him to behave any particular way.
He never tries to make a move, although he's made his interest plain and clear.
I completely appreciate the fact that he knows my values and wont even step foot in the door of relationship talk with me, because of them.
But, once again...
I play the miss home maker position and bring him food to his studio,
Invite him to the house when the family cooks,
And make myself available when he wants to hang out.
Finally, I arrange a day for the two of us to hang,
He forgets and ends up making plans.
Although, he invited me, I declined.
Its the fact that I was able to remember something so simple and my time, or even, us spending time together was the farthest thing from his mind.
But, of course, I forgave the mistake.
We make plans for the very next day.
I call him.
He answers, and we agree to speak in a little while to finalize everything.
As you can already tell,
He doesnt call me back.

I mean, of course I know now not to hang with the guy,
But what is it about them that makes them feel no shame or mercy when it comes to me?
Why arent they afraid to let me down as I would be them?

This is why,
I have officially decided to stop dating, hanging out, seeing people, anything that involves interacting with the opposite sex.
No, to the retard who's gonna ask if I'm saying Ive decided to become lesbian,
I believe in Jesus and to be quite frank, lesbianism, gays, bisexuals, bestiality, zoophilia, all those things wont be allowed in heaven.
Considering I see myself being there, I'd like to not entertain those ideas.

But, anyway, I quit on guys for a while.
So, if you need me, I'll be in the library somewhere reading a novel or something.

What's a girl to do?

My best friend (Authuntik- SupaFlai) is away at her brothers wedding.
My cousin is away at drill for the Military,
And my sister is going away for school.

I, of course was blessed with the WRONG weekend off...
causing me to die alone of boredom.
That one special guy who's post will now remain in my draft, super MIA'd on me.
So, instead of spending an AMAZING weekend eating food, listening to music, and goofing around in the studio with Mr. Awesome,
I was forced to sleep for 18 hours, add music to my Ipod, attend a social function for the middle age, and accept the call in to work on Sunday.

Not to mention, I starved in the house, considering the beautiful stainless steel fridge is empty AND
I'm afraid to walk outside after the 15 year old kid pelted a mini rock at my leg because I didnt say goodnight to him and his prepubescent friends.

So, as I lay here in my full sized bed with distasteful flowered- quilted bedding,
I ask you all...
What's a girl to do?

Driving slow on Sunday Mornin'

So, its Sunday.
Rise and Shine.
I woke up this morning from the most annoying voice of a West Indian.
My dear, dear, aunt.
Lawless, yet respectable.
The alarm upstairs goes off.
Instead of walking up that one flight of stairs,
She believes deep down in her spirit that its okay to make enough noise,
Scream my name from the depths of her soul,
In order to wake me to turn it off.


Of course, I ignored, seeing how she dragged me out of bed at ELEVEN O'CLOCK to accompany her to party amongst the middle aged.
We got in the house around 5-ish.
During the drive home, I counted on my fingers " 6-1, 7-2, 8-3, 9-4, 10-5, 11-6, 12-7, 1-8".
Thats how many hours of sleep I'd have if I was lucky enough to fall asleep by 6.

After waking up to such torment,
I can't help but to move at the slowest speed available.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Who Do Ya Love?

American Fangs.
I first fell in love with them at AfroPunk 09.

The drums started.
The bass kicked in
The guitar got me grooving.
But it wasn't until...

Lead Vocalist, Gus jumped and wailed all over the stage.
From that moment on, I realized... He was the one.
(Im only lying, lol)

But, these guys were awesome.
Full of energy...
Interactive with the audience...
I knew what they were saying...

They just won me over, lol.
Check out there music..
I think you'd enjoy em.
My Guy Gus
(Noo.. he's not really my guy)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

What's Listening?

So, I've been listening to the same playlist on repeat for a while now.
I REALLY like every single song on the playlist.
Take a listen, folks!